last year 2016 in Unisel

its been a while since my last post. and it take place months n year to learn from this entirely world. surrounding teach me how to loves someone who care about me. how to appreciate someone who always beside me. many peoples come n go since last year. first is friends, in the first place yes i have many friends but who will stay with us for a long term? NOBODY. my life in college is not as beautiful like others. i cant go walk with my friends. i cant go travel with my friends. i cant talk with MEN. i cant talk with someone that i dont even know. i have to make a gap to everything. i should put a limits toward them. no actually i dont have many friends in college life, my life is going to university, sit in the class, focus on what i am learn, and go back home. i am not an active student. i am willing to join others event but i cant. if u know my heart though. its hurt inside cause i cant enjoy my college life.  in the first semester yes i have friends, i make a lot of friends around 10 in class and 5 at home? lol. but now, we are not 10 anymore. sem by sem there someone took other subject. now in my very last year of semester. i am only got 2 friends go along with me.

im going to intern next year in january in Deloitte. syukur alhamdulillah. only allah knows how much i feel grateful. i will be in that company for 6 months and in this last 1 months is my last day with my panties (our house group name). i dont make many friends, so i feel little bit worried to make one at other place. and of course work environment is different with student life. that make me feel more worried.

last but not least, thanks to abang cause stay with me for 5 years 5 months and 3 days today. it is a long period. i know people always ask us about our relationship. no im not going to answer. people do judge others. they dont know how we go through for this long years. they just know how to condemn us. i do love him and i know he loves me too. im deleted his photos from my Instagram since too much people judge us. he did it too. but then, we created another instagram where there is no people from unisel will get into it. only_us2421 on instagram now. 2421 is my lucky number actually. i love number 2. i was born on 24/2. and 1 is mean i am limited edition.

sorry for the heart to heart story. i really hope that everyone will give us space to be together. i know u are much better neither from me nor from him. but we will complete each other. we will try to make our dream comes true. we will make it.

love,
me
19/11/2015

dont sing the song, just read

i do love this song, and the lyrics so meaningful, it will not happen cause i wont let him go.  insya allah
i love him. <3


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5 must common new-relationship mistakes

hai assalamulaikum,
almost few months being a passive person, learn how to be an independent student, prepared myself to become a good person, i am 21 years old now, so i have to think what i'm gonna be in 5 years in the future.
today i would like to share something to anyone bout relationship, yeah people nowdays, budak 12 tahun pon dah pandai nak bercinta, hehehe.

like we all knows, ramai remaja sekarang bercinta bertukar2 pasangan, kadang2 ada yang bangga sebab ex dy deret manjang.... so should i jeles? sbb my ex not more or equal than three, pandai2 la nak pahamkan ye. belajar math kan. hehehe.

5 must common "new-relationship" mistakes.

1. making hormonal choices
- bila someone "madly in love", dyorg akan buat decisions based on their feelings at the time, not on the suitability of a potential long-term mate. benda ni selalu jadi kat remaja zaman sekarang, dy main sebat je apa yang ada, bukan nak fikir nak buat jadi wife ke husband ke kan.  if u feel u are about to commit urself to a person bcoz that person "has something magnetic about him o her.. feeling that u just cant describe, actually its ur hormones talking to u, not ur brain. adek2 yg parah tu, akak pon parah gak bercinta, kita sama je but please choose ur partner on the suitability of a potential long-term mate. :)

2. denial of problems
- haaa benda ni selalu jadi..bak kata orang, kalau dah suka kentut pon bau wangi. pfffttt. u will deny urself that the person has probs that u olss dah tau, or refuse to listen to others about flaws ur lover may have. contohnya kan macam ni, korang couple ngan someone ni, but at the same time someone told u that she/he has someone else. but then u refuse to accept it. xpercaya la kan, dah sayang, semua benda indah. u may focus on the lover only as u want him/her to appear.

3. choosing needy people
- yup, 1 of the mistakes, biggg mistakes. u attract people who plead that they need u n u spend ur time being there for them n constantly trying to fix their neuroses. benda ni selalu jadi kat lelaki (sorry), contohnya yang bercinta jarak jauh ni, as me know, men need woman n woman need love. dyorg kalau jauh sikit mula la kan. n a woman need love, sapa yang xkan jatuh hati dekat lelaki yg selalu ada dengan dy kan. please find someone who wants to be with u, not needs to be with u...

4. being compliant
- benda ni selalu jadi kat orang2 yang baru bercinta, cuba korang bercinta bertahun2 nak tengok apa jadi, hahahaha. every new relationship spend their time desperately avoiding any disagreement with their new love, trying to make him/her happy n avoiding doing o saying anything that might upset him/her. for me la kan, nak gaduh tu xsalah tp kne la ada yang mengalah kan? give n take, respect. apa2 pon respect, kalau u olss wish u want ur partner be ur wife o husband please respect. insyaAllah.

5. picking a partner who u think u can change
-" i know he's had a bad history with relationship, but when he's with me, he'll be different, he'll change"... pfffttt jangan kau percaya dengan semua ini dusta belaka. dia takkan berubah. someone yang percaya dyorg boleh mengubah seseorang atau menjadi sesuatu yang lain always asking for a tough life. many women believe that the magical power of love will create a new man before their very eyes, but what normally happens is the new lover simply reestablishes his past bad habits in the new relationship. contohnya, yang lelaki ni hisap rokok, tapi perempuan ni xsuka lelaki hisap rokok, so konon2 lelaki ni pon berhenti la.... jangan percaya korang ingat senang nak benti rokok ni? nonsense. normally doesn't happen until much later in the relationship bcoz in the early stages of romantic love, most people show their best side n hide their bad habits. agak2 pakwa korang xlayan korang sangat, dah suka marah2, suke pegi tandas pegang fon, kantoi mesej pelik2, be ready, tanda2 korang akan dapat madu adalah sangat tinggi. hahaha. please make a good choice. :D

omg, i cant belive i wrote all of this nonsense fact. hahaha. just for fun, got a test tomorrow. wish me luck n get well soon abang. jangan lupa makan ubat <3

i love u abang <3

wishlist 2014 on progress

#hardworking, more focuses, maintain, capable of being a good person.

#insyaAllah and Amin.. may allah ease everything.

#gudluck untuk abang yang akan menjalani practical on february di sekolah. may Allah bless you n  be a role model or icon to your students. semoga segalanya dipermudahkan. love ya :)

last year, final sem, bukan senang untuk berjaya.

assalamualaikum...hai peeps.. :D

yeah almost few months xaktif dengan blog. cause i am not a full time blogger yang nak belek2 blog setiap hari, even setiap hari ada cerita nya sendiri, masa tu lebih kepada benda lain yang i think more important than duduk depan lappy n create my own story. bila ada rasa nak menaip, baru bukak blog ni. haha sedih.

now dah sem 7 means dah last sem....omaigadddd yeah its sooooooo tough susah bapak ahhhh....banyak benda kene catch up, ada 6 subject sem ni...and imaging that i ni amek cause accountancy but ada 2 subject je yang mengira yang lain semua membaca, accounting theory, auditing, business law n entrepreneurship. homaienglish. macam amek subjek amende ntah kan....sodeh...

susah subject membaca ke mengira? yeah it should be mengira sbb ada formula tapi kene ingat membaca ni lagi susah sebab kene hafal lebih2 lagi fakta, mane boleh pakai balun jek kan? sampai sekarang still rasa auditing benda yang paling susah, yela yang ngajar tu prof..soooo paham2 jela prof ngajar tu acane gaya dy, duduk je kat kerusi ajar pkai slides. pffftt geram nyeeeee

when we talk bout final year, kite mesti la nak struggle kan, yelahhh last sem, kalau pointer jatuh nak korek mane kan? so sem ni busy dengan quiz, test, assignment. kadang2 rasa nak cepat je habeskan tapi apakan daya. ingat lagi sir hafiz pernah kata, " lelaki dah memang pemalas, ni perempuan zaman sekarang lagi pemalas, bapak pemalas, asek keje tido je". kihkih kene betol ngan orang orang yang suka wat taik mata tuh.

tidur tu xsalah tapi kalau terlebih tidur sampai semua kerja kelaut memang susah la kan. syukur alhamdulillah setakat ni siang xtido lagi sbb kalau tido siang akan kne migrain n bila kne migrain akan effect pada pelajaran right?

setakat ni, memang banyak benda nak story tapi sebab ada benda lain nak wat acane kan, oh btw, sedang memikirkan masa depan untuk sambung terus dekat unisel tu, bukan apa, masa itu emas. hehe

i miss you too !

assalamualaikum...hai peeps...
im on hol hol holidayyyy now....dah 2 minggu dekat rumah mak nih...

aktiviti mcm biasa, bangun pagi kemas rumah bagai, xsepah ape pon, duduk xramai,
practise make perfect, xlama g kan duduk umah sendiri, kne la pandai buat semua tu,  hahaha

so pagi ni after buat semua homework tu on lappy n online,
1st, nampak 3 notifications, hmmmmm kalau tak game request, benda event bagai ni lah,
biasalahhhh fb ni merepek semacam,
bukak je haaaa kan betol game request, memang pandang sebelah mata jela pandang,

tapi ttbe nampak 1 notifie ni, hmmm wanie post something, bila dy post something, i have to read it right??
so bukak laaaaa....ten ten, ouh okay dy rindu rupanya. hikhik so dapat idea, tulis kat comment space sikit *ceh. so i decide to dedicate this post for her. now wanie tengah practikal, asek p tapak je kan, yelah, bakal2 orang berjaya, miahahaha. aminnnnn.

so wanie si gembeng ( dulu dy suka nanges ). aku rindu kau jugakkkk, cuma sekarang kau busy kan, aku mane leh text kau selalu, orang dah bekerja ni xsama ngan student, hihi.

seeee baru cte pasal kau, kau dah post lagu pulak kat aku? hahahahaha. nampak beno rindunyeeee.... <3

# sorry i rembat gambar u. heeeee <3

# ni ape yang aku rasa dulu, tapi rasanya aku yg selalu skip kelas. :D sorry.

# i mean it <3

# ineedyou <3

# i hope so <3

# i know u admit it <3

i miss you too <3 <3

busy busy busy

assalamualaikum hai readers...

lama kita xberbelog...bukan apa, im so so sooooo busy coz examination is around the corner n subject sangat sangat tough......so xde masa nak update pape...banyak benda jadi...tapi sokay, lupakan. hehehe

now, kita kat kluang, jap g 2.30 ptg nak balik shah alam dah, balik sebab ada majlis....phewww penat. jumaat malam sampai, ahad dah balik, xpuas okay duduk umah mak ni,.... so my ladies(friends), 2 minggu lg je kita nak survive untuk sem 5 ni.....gud luck!! <3

# yesterday. sangat penat walaupun keje nya duduk, makan n gedik. hahaha. kawan abang kawen. <3

ok lah, pasni dekat sebulan jugak lah xbukak blog ni lg, nak final dah end of this month. sooooo nak siap2 balik shah alam ni.

bye <3